Lonely Man's Dream

Lonely Man's Dream

It's not so much the distance
as it is the disregard, my already broken heart
I see the worst of a situation, it's all my fault

I want to run away, escape the hate
Face my fate before I suffocate

I CAN TELL YOU NOW SHE'S NOT THE ONE.

Feel the pulsing beats pass through your empty chest
the welling of nothing inside, the sinking is filling
You should be the one, not me, to run away
...but I always am the one to stay behind, remain in red
Concede yourself to the poison apple's grip on sanity
and release all the rage into a fiery sun of burning hate
Your apocalypse is self-driven, mind seeping numbness
Love's leeching grip, so cold on my searing heart
escape from myself and everyone else: my desire
One day I will fulfill the lonely man's dream.

Blood and Bone

Blood and Bone

Deliver me to the door
open it for me,
And watch as I fall through the threshold
the red drops mingle with the clear
and the white mixes with the silver
into a colorful concoction, a cocktail of endings
Sending me into the cold steel drawer where I belong.

the bastard lying on the floor
he can't move, or even breathe
that bastard here is me
Without a thought or pulse
Cold fingers grasping my killer
So apparent now, everyone can can see
But no one will.

I could lay here for weeks before someone found me
Stay here turned oblique, a mangled mess of blood, gore, and bone
A harmful transition into a contorted position, leave me alone
I have no home.

She, part III

She, part III

All the way,
Distance equals suffering
This worlds just too much for me
Witness wake through rising steam
And see you here in front of me
But the happiness is just a dream
Welcome to reality
She's the only thing I need
But She's so far away from me

circumstances rely on truth
lies may be made
I know I have not and will not
maybe this time I'll escape unscathed

The fires and lathes from within
threaten to consume me to win
but I will persevere and I won't back down
All for this girl from out of town

Cerulean Deep

Cerulean Deep

Ponder the loves once remembered

plunder the empty skies

wander the road less traveled

wonder how can pictures lie

the words I heard you say

are now awash these sands of sounds

tomorrow never brings the sunny skies you promised

today it will rain, and the day before that

mystery dwells; my world is cerulean deep

a titan is climbing to the waves which we fly through

though I hear

voices, fragments of a teenage dream

locked into summer, the heat has been rising

the passion of flesh dawned into the dusk

with the mammoth of burden behind

bobbing in the blue above,

blue all around

im floating in it

no sense of direction

pretense of reflection

motion a victimless crime

the cerulean deep makes me fall to my knees

whilst the rest of the world passes by

much longer I'm captive?

far stronger: the rapture

of blue from the dark bruised skies

flood waters burst forth and pour out eternal blue

the rainfall the call of the infertile truth

the purity amassed in the basin of lies

trickles into the hearts and the minds

corrupting the gentle and beating the right

this poisonous chasm filled with macabre delight

and the rains flow forth, fill full cerulean deep

precipice of acid, rolling black whilst it sleeps