Poison

I bit the poison apple, and now it's too late

No illumination on this now-dark path

I cannot turn around now, it's too late

Her lingering pasts eat me to the point I'm gone

I hide inside my vagrant mind, unaware

I am chasing what was never there

Poisonous, what lies behind the smile

Overload, but not abandoning morality

Acidic eyes burn themselves into memory

Spark ignites inferno within the chasm we've built

Filling to the brim with hidden deceit

Prisoner to spirit of youth, condemned to suffer

It's only for the weak

Make me see, make me believe

Take your poison when you leave

Then you'll understand what it's like to be me.

Say goodbye to the world.

shitty writing.

One more time.
words pull the pin
Detonate the pain
Active again.

Love's song from a siren, serenading
A source of mildewed joy
Tainted by the knowledge
As man forever is cursed

Scars are stars that never made it
Laying dead as if it never were
Reality is a vestibule of death
Only you can change yourself.

She Will Never Understand

She will never understand.
I love the way she smiles at me
Something just fills me, a pail of love
Not one day goes by without me wondering why
I hadn't met my love any sooner

She will never understand:
The depths of my bottomless love for her
The glazed-over gaze of unbridled bliss
Every drop of my love, I pour into each kiss
Just why I feel the world still has hope.

She will never understand,
Before she awoke me, I hid in my broken shell
Every sunrise hovers in anticipation of the present
Every twilight renews stress of the rest of the world
Among it all, I stand proud as her man.

She will never understand.

waking up to a terrible dream.

I woke up early or late
Depending on your point of view
Amazed that I could sleep at all
After hearing what I did
Every man she's lied about
Makes me want to cry and shout
I hardly could sleep but a wink
The man before, he made me think.

If there was a reason, please tell me now
My love is unceasing; I wonder why? How?

Why would my love lie like loves once before
Opening my heart; her lies: steady downpour
Please make this pain all just float far away
My love is disrupted, heartbroken today

Once pleasant feeling now becomes filthy stray
In the shadows of my love, take me away
My sweet scented flower, tell me the truth
So we can get past it while we're still youth
I still want to be with you, I just want the truth



Lie awake, wide with wonder, have I overstepped my grounds?
When I hear that you're false, and my heart starts to pound
My skull gives away, crashes in to the pain
My heart questions whether twill be happy again

the blues...

in the hours of twilight
in the damp, darkened room
beneath the cold moonlight
Shiverings bloom

The young man lies awake with eyes staring blue
The black unending ceiling begins to move
Reading words of pre-dated doom
The young man cries awake with eyes staring blue

If this be my last, let me leave you a note
For my whole dreary life, I've been shunned to the side
Overworn, patched, a scarred tattered coat
Did my time far too long, now I no longer abide.

In memory of dream, I'm released.
In nightmarish scream, i'm the beast.