I should have known
You can't unstitch the threads of life once they are sewn
The path is black
Everywhere I go it seems like I'm attacked
But look at him
He never gives up but he never wins
He can't forget all that's been done to him
He wants to get out but he's locked within....in.

the beginning of the end

H.T. Feivel: The Beginning Of The End
On the edge of chaos
We all wait for our time
As we swim through dark waters
Far from the fiery light
As he walks through swamps
In the ending days
The future is passing
As he digs his own grave

This is the beginning of the end

Armageddon is here
It will awaken your fears
The path is so clear
That the end is so near
As he walks through hell
In the darkest days
His future is passing
Is it too late to save?

This is the beginning of the end

Die by the hands of your maker
Never free, couldn't be
What you wanted it to be
Now you bow before the ones who fooled you
Say goodbye to the lies
No more living in disguise

hmmm. the future, eh?
I think something like this.

Behind the crisp scent of fresh-cut flowers,
There is a beautiful girl.
Striding the sands in the ecstasies of love,
I swear I'll never let her go
I'll hold her hand while the world dies
My time gets lost within her eyes
When her smile fades, I'll cheer her up
Then worthwhile days bring a clear, pure flood
of fulfillment, we won't have to hide the truth
In just a few short years, my love

The day is coming when I can steal your breath
And just looking at you will render me mute
All the days of waiting, finally put to death
Already, my dreams come complete with you :)

My untouchable, your heart is mine to hold
One day this will be our story told
The crime of time, and events that unfold
My love, your mine, our love is bold.

Think Freely. .. ...

I made this song earlier today, and I think I'm gonna start posting songs on here too. "Think Freely", as the song so explicitly states....the world is falling apart...
...
Listen to "Western Sky" - Think Freely
it's time for change
someone needs to begin
the charge to trample congress
and begin anew again
this country was the best
but now it falls apart
There needn't be hate nor blood
but change, all the same
...

To my untouchable,

I love you more than the symphony of a million serenading crickets, and I look forward to spending nice forest-rimmed lakeside evenings under a gazebo, eating dinner, and being together :)

-H.T. Feivel

oh, and "western Sky" as a band name. :P

in my sleep, i am loved

So many times, throughout the day
I remember her face, the words she used to say
Pavement talks, hallway walks almost everyday
But now all I can think about's the one that got away

I sit in chairs, while numbers stare
Neon flashbacks, she's right there
If only she had equal care
But life is cruel, alas, unfair

Journey to a crater rim, her smile hides inside
Even though she knows, we go on in silence
Try to find the spark inside, my love
Take my heart to yours, in lands above
the earth, where happiness is free
A kiss I give to you, your love you give to me
If only, but mostly this is my fantasy
Sadly this reality will never come to be

the owl and him

Full moon walks to the birdhouse
with lips sealed and memory revealed
A young man carries everything he's lost
While the biggest owl strikes melodies of night

Chords, they play inside his head
Memory repeats everything they've said
One she for him, a she who cares
A she who in reality was never there

He sits on wood, just like the owl
Together blackened, man and fowl
Fouler tears were cried and dried
No one knows what's held inside

Trust is something he can't do
It wasn't broken til he met you
You shattered trust as well as heart
A young man wishes death to start

Pour this nectar in his soul
Use your love to make him whole
Open up your concrete heart
Let love begin, let the healing start

The owl still perched upon that tree
Gazes at a man lost in memory
It sees a mouse and dives to kill
Silence echoes as all grows still

The blackbird

Among the rows of grey stone
Another man finds his home
His body rests and memory lives
But in time, that too soon will fade

"Give up," the blackbird had sadly called
"There's no justice for love after all,"
Spreading his wings, it flew away
Spreading forth misery in its own way

Each life it visits soon ends
His message of death not pretend
When the blackbird calls forth your name
You become a pawn in his game
Unfortunately his mercy is dry
And now you, too, must die

Below the rock

Brush aside my apology, bring forth my blackened eulogy
For tonight we dig this grave in somber silence shattered harmony
Torn asunder, drift on seas, remember every memory
Torture words you used to bruise me,
Rape me, use but never lose me

Hope took flight so long ago
A rope so tight around my throat
Never could I change her mind
I wonder why I'm still alive

Rock bottom's been, and deeper still
I sink far down, as moonlight fills
the room will spin, my heart you've killed
Swallow again this bitter pill

my glass jar

Adrift among memory, a man found a girl
Like life plays out, he fell in love
His lifeblood spills out, she soaks it all up
Only to poison it and shoot him in the heart

Imagine a blackbird trapped in a box
A memory prison, more solid than steel
Picture my heart, beating and alive
Inside a glass jar, cold to the touch

I gave the one that invisible prison
She smashed it, and for a moment I was free
Only until I realized what she did to me
The shattered jar left my heart exposed
Glass broken, shards impaled my heart
She wore her clay mask of lies
Unfortunately I believed her disguise
I remember all the kisses, staring in her eyes
I'll forever be wondering why, forever why

Sand Sailor

A murder of black omens, crows, stashing tokens
Of jealousy, hate, lust, and sins here unspoken
Now shattered and broken is the window to all hope
Winds blow wooden breath heavy oaken fraying one man's rope

A desert place, complete without life
without a refreshing oasis in sight
Vultures come in the middle of the night
To restore the balance of death

Tread the eternal unending deluge
Of sand, brimstone, fire that's searing right through
the flesh of all hermits and vagrants like you
Who wander til death through the hate-founded dunes

Human Pride

This ongoing war that never halts
Is there no army strong enough to revolt?
One citizen can change the course of it all
Vote blindly for change, for the end of the world

This battle is fought only to be lost
There are no more resources to exhaust
You just keep hoping help will arrive
But by your own means, you'll never survive

A soldier aims his gun, but it's too late
the bloody field of people by a desert lake
Battle lines were drawn, washed away with mud
Thousands dead and dying, holocaust of blood

The leaders sit in their distant tents
Plotting out ways just to get revengeance
You as a soldier, you've had enough
Living life in hell, from the time you wake up

Tonight they will find out how it ends
The future is changing with you and your men
You have the will, they have the way
The war will be over if they do what you say

Don't think twice, it's alright

thank you, bob dylan. here's what i have to say.


You see our life through a covered lens, babe
So in reality, you see nothing at all
You look in the past and you know the whole truth, babe
But you're scared to admit to yourself
That what if the love that was building inside
Was not just a dream or a feeling to hide
Somewhere things just got knocked out of line
Don't think twice, it's alright

It's no use tryin stay up late at night, babe
I'll come visit you in the past
And it's no use tryin to save what you break, babe
If it's broke it don't work anyhow
When meteors struck you from old wounds renewed
I knew it was useless but I still tried for you
I gave you my heart and you gave me the blues
Don't think twice it's alright

I never hear your voice on my phone, babe
Maybe you've found someone new
and I'll never forget those nights stayed up late, babe
Home, home is where my heart sleeps
Look at us now, where has the time gone
I close my eyes, and then there you are
You are the one that has most of my heart
Don't think twice, it's alright