Bridge

you've written pages in your book
a novel of future pain and loss
so burnt out on self-esteem
you lock it in and watch it scream
We built this bridge but you still burn it
I put out fires and try rebuilding
but smoke-stained planks adorn the walk
missing steps make it hard to cross

it seems each time the canyon widens
the bridge is stretched and falls apart
you refuse to take a leap of faith
I know that I can catch your fall
You only need give me your all

Calloused

mousetrap open bites down hard
bleeding, how it's opened scars
calloused pain comes back again
arisen from its hidden dark

pen to paper's been and done
nothing new for you, my son
battle on with nothing won
bleeding moon is beating sun

the hand the feeds is dripping blood
becoming ever greater flood
thoughts arisen, curse of past
bury in the baking mud!

inside the brick, a thought is locked
the mortar though is far too soft
too many bricks the walls will fall
down comes anger, burning all.

In the End

this is supposed to go to the linkin park tune.



It starts with
one thing, I don't know why, it doesn't even matter how hard I've tried to keep you around and satisfied but you never look around
the rotting lies
that won't get out of your soul the lies that I told when we first hung out I know sometimes I just bring you down and maybe its time to
untie, divide,
separate the lives that we built and embrace every trace of enveloping cold to unloose all the memories outta my soul and be left all alone
With just my thoughts
together just them and me sailing out upon the frozen seas and I can't find my way back to today the day that I gave it all away

just to believe in you and me
but I can't accept the reality
That you can't understand just who I am
I am man, and that is all

one thing, I gave it to you and you took it along with thing number two: every day bit by bit with every move that I made with every word that I said
you emptied me
of all of my dreams and desires, you threw em all in the fire along with the man that you said I should be and the time has expired I'm no
longer inspired
to write any rhymes I retired the day that the music died in the fire and I can't get it back it all faded to black the rope that tied it all together went slack
For you my love
your attacks at the heart of my core I'm no more than a crack in the path under feet near the shore and the time is now yours I'm no longer your chore you don't have to worry bout me anymore

I still believe in you and me
but I can't accept the reality
That you can't understand just who I am
I am man, and that is all

It starts with
one thing, then it moves to the next, without even pausing or taking a breath it leaves you behind getting lost over time can't rewind all the times that you
lied to me
hiding things you don't want me to see, but they've always been staring directly at me, in the eye all the lies that you hid to get by but you didn't know that I would
find them out
so you locked them away but in doing so you had to know you'd destroy future days, time with me, can't you see that you changed memories now they eat away at today and
tomorrow hurts much more
you've now enslaved my quiet place leaving trace of yesterdays the time is gone but not a waste for far too long I lived in dark and now my song can truly play the doldrums roll now hear me say

I'm always here, right by your side
Even though I know you still will hide
You blinded truth from my open eyes
But I am man, and take the fall

I hold onto the you in me
and I accept what's become reality
That you can never know just where I come from
I am the one you saved and slayed, I am the one

The Lonely Man Part 2

I'm so frustrated and I hate it that you cannot be sedated
So unsure of beauty, jaded at the world and how we made it
out alive how we survive but hidden patience now is tried
it's not a lie but you still hide inside the guy who burned alive
leaving trace of blackened grace that sits behind your perfect face
always behind even when grins and laughter fly from former sins like
a turtle in its shell entombed in sheltered living hell that's left behind when
the world and its people have moved on you dwell upon the former me and how I

fell from the life of the sinner I was
You know I'll always love you
as the clouds burn with fire my desire
that you see I'm who you want me to be
And if it rains let it pour thunderstorms
wash away the sins of past
let it go let's move on and cross this bridge we're waiting on for far too long... Together.

Does it pay?

They say that it pays to go to work everyday but is it really worth it to throw your family away I say let everybody live your life everyday like its the last day on earth so would you work or choose play but in choosing you may be losing another chance to say the truth to those who mean something to you this last day how much they mean to you the golden obvious truth of what you said you would do to keep the family in tact a pact with nobody and you but when the sky crashes down and the black conquers blue I know where I'll be after but what about you?

Leap of Faith

words on the wings of a blackbird
I hurt so much more when it rains
hidden inside behind her blue eyes
are the tales of grim, my dear fate.
I hope not too late for today and tomorrow
the virus inside us from yesterdays sorrows

Now to think it was me who planted first seed
now, indeed, I know that the sower was me
I pulled from my bag of my happiness feed
hoping to grow in love such a tree
boughs so strong they can weather the ages
from its branches could be written the pages
a story of love, of two souls in desire
but it turns out the bag of seed fell in fire
now when I'm me she will wallow in mire
in love but not quite, causing darkness to fill
that void in her heart where I used to live
trading calm for the qualm of a broken will
But with such a hope as my mind can perceive
a hope for a joy, I believe it indeed.