travel.

Merciless clouds march over mountains
The soldiers of the sky
Time is short and so unfair
Seas become my eyes
I climb the tree that showed me life
She sits right beside
A simple wish: to share my love
I'll love you til I die

You just don't understand, just how much I care
If I had the opportunity, I'd gladly take you there
I'd cuddle with you every night, run fingers through your hair
Let me be the one to travel with you there.

Sticks and Stones

H.T. Feivel: Sticks and Stones [Music for the Previous]

Eyewitness bore too much to bear
As sorrow struck him with despair
On springtime evenings, it is there
He wonders if love's in the air

After every perfect kiss
All he sees are signs of bliss
But when alone, memory is shown
These sticks and stones will break his hope

Father left him eight years old
No letters, words, or calling phone
The boy grew up feeling alone
His hatred burns a fire so cold
Because he's locked it up inside
A beast within himself he hides
He still recalls his father's eyes
Those nights that anger broke disguise

All this time, it's held inside
What do you believe?
Mother when will be my time
Where's your epiphany?
Come dance along these battle lines
Who's it gonna be?
Delude yourself, my Queen of Pine
Define your destiny?

Loneliness

i wrote this a long time ago and forgot about it.
sooo here it is

i dont know why. it seems that i can escape from the pain and prison of my mind for temporary timeshifts but in the end, and often short, i wind up in a cell of my own creation, something, somewhere i wish i didnt know. i live in this place, i infrequently am relieved of this persecution, but of course, it isnt total and complete. it is always separated with strings attached. more like rubber ropes than strings, for they yank me back. i dont know why i have been so absorbed into my introspective world of which no one can enter. i dont know how to escape. i feel trapped inside my head. my words seem to be my only release, like soemone is being held hostage inside me, but that someone is Happiness. i want him free, but he is resolved to living in solitude, and this i cannot change. i am the prison on the rock of my life, surrounded by murky waters of mistrust and malcontent, the razor-wire fences of my own impious actions surround me before the hate ever grabs control. once or twice i have slipped out of the fence, but as always, the ebb and flow of that sea of despair washes the sands of longing into an ever tidal crescendo of my own imminent doom. i dont know how long i can stay locked away within myself. just seeing her face brought it back. jsut opening my eyes brought it all back. just closing my eyes, and seeing their faces tattooed onto the backs of my eyelids burn a hole in my retina, making me wish i was blind, deaf, and dumb.

I tell you now, my pain is gone.

And just like that, I knew.
This whole time I've been feeling blue
Her mind's confused, but her heart is true
"I'd do anything for you."

I can't explain the breaking dawn
I tell you now my pain is gone

If someone viewed us from afar
They'd see romance, cuddling stars
Her love is quietly radiant and pure
We share a bond that's so secure
Such common passion, I know for sure
I am happiest with her

More of a story is hard to find
I still wonder how I was so blind
You see, she's been here, this whole time
I thought she knew, we saw the signs

dreaming

How wonderfully painful it is to fall asleep
Waking inside while my body lies
A new world emerges, built of reality
But clay dolls play games in rusted lives

Love sings that serenading siren-call,
and it warms my entire body...
but none of it is real

Death stalks me across every wall
and it floods me with fear
but none of this is real

I shake the hand of misery;
It destroys all hope in dream
Even when I'm close to death
I've only silent screams

With nothing left but crumbling end
I find myself without a friend
I walk the world, drenched in blue
Missing all I've had with you

Then the storm abates and dies
I wake up cold, apply disguise
No one knows what's held inside
But She controls my mind.

Well, It's my fault.

Behind the blue, below the clouds
A wandering mind, a sealed mouth
What is love, but pain and loss?
Enduring patience, please pay off

I've come to realize
That you're always on my mind
And whenever you're beside
I am fully satisfied.

But whenever you're not close
It's as if my hope has froze
I wish that you could know
How much I wish that it were so.

Waiting for love is the hardest thing
Because every time it ends in nothing
If only SHE were the one on MY string
She'd feel every inch of my suffering