That man is not me!

Death's black ink upon this line
shows nothing how I feel
Prisoner inside my own mine
my memories: my meals
Haunted by the undefined
I cannot know what's real
In dreams I am the killing kind
my nature is revealed

Am I, what I never
thought that I would be
Lies of, former self
Stalk me in my dreams
Darkness, come find me
Why can't you understand
I hurt you but nearly killed me
But you just won't believe

All of my love poured out
into your paper cup
When it dries you set alight
burning future life
You can't be here inside my mind
and so you'll never see
What's past is black, former attacks
That that man is not ME!!!!