When you know that I know

Fractured.
Feeling so frustrated that you cannot see
The lying man is no longer me.
I'm clothed in the light
and I'm closing the gap
What more can I do, I'm all that you ask

I presume it to be that if I were to look back
I'd hate what I see, your lies behind me
To know I told all, the pain that it gives
But you still hold back, This is know.

Before us came them, but you paint me an art
of perfection and then, from me falls apart
the crumbling of truth when the lies are exposed
what then shall happen when you know that I know?

Never too late to save a soul

Advantage was stolen yesterday,
and every day before that.
It's too late to rewind, but if I did... wouldn't he as well?
And everyone else?

One decision creates the perfect storm of men forlorn
doomed to perform without thought for the future.
The Unforgiven.
Men forsaken feature self-infliction upon
the faces that never foresaw such destruction
all from one decision, deathly and detractive

Inhale the pain of the future
For today it's passing pleasure
But tomorrow weeps with regret
For you have affected more than just yourself.

Change may have came too late for life,
but it's never too late to save a soul.

"I once was lost, but now am found."

No matter what happens, I'll see you again.
One life breathes it into many more, many who desperately need it.

When it is found, a calmness ensues. Almost time to meet your maker.
Before you go, you need to know I have always loved you.
Thank you for everything you have ever given me.

Old Turtle Shell

minutes bleed like hours
as I grow old for the truth
fail like I always have
Failure: Me

I am an old turtle shell, rotting inside
change you can believe in
guillotined my life, now I'm here
hollow, contingent upon Her song
Siren lures me close then throws me on the rocks
Melodies take a titanic toll on my soul
moral from the lips of the beholder

those ancient icicles on the ceiling, drip as hell arrives
falling, one by one, no reason to dodge the destruction
if the loneliest number becomes reality

remember the education factory? remember no self-worth?
do you remember crying in the slide, alone? I do.
Do you remember creating friends because you were the plague?
I do.

After quitting the factory, flames crept close
but I managed to escape

I knew they would return, as they always do.
The old familiar stink of my shell, if only it were hollow
but it's filled with regret, and the wrong choices.
factory fumes still familiar, infect my shell
"Welcome my son, welcome to the machine."

bleeding thoughts, am I capable?
If I did, would I regret it or lose the last of myself?

I am weak

Why is this my life?
Whoever said it's me?
Or is reality just a cruel and wishful destiny?
If tomorrow I'm gone I can't even tell you
how much I love you.
And now you'll never believe it.

I am weak, and my mind must die.

I'm so sorry I've put you through this.
I'm sorry I'm not stronger.
I'm sorry I just can't let myself stay.
Most of all I'm sorry I broke your heart.

....."one last kiss for you" :(

I am nothing without you

Welcome back into my life
For You it's been a while
Shady memories, hate the memories
Misery finds its way
To my quiet place
Anger is the scene, can't you hear the screams?

Behind closed eyes, he begs you,
"Give me the chance to save you.
Look. What we had was so true.
I am nothing without you..."

Will this be my last,a moonlit finale?
I did it again, I'm back here once more
If she knew, I'd already be gone
So long ago it seems, she ate the bait
But the poison which I poured, into her shown through

"Rewind the time", he can't do,
"The past still exists, we ran through.
A sorry just cannot appease you,
Is there nothing more here for me and you?"

And the world was gone
The only one I knew
Could it happen once again?
Could I change it?
The past is set in stone, built up with shade
My sweat and blood are all I've had, my mortal demons
That make my heart and hands be separate.

Behind closed eyes, he begs you,
"Give me the chance to save you.
Look. What we had was so true.
I am nothing without you..."

Behind those eyes, she begs you,
"Give me the chance to save you.
Look. By myself I can't do.
I am nothing without you..."

Moth in a Thunderstorm

should I unlock the door?
I could unseal the fates
to end this curse

the words that bring me back to then
cold stars that seek revenge

I became
The moth in a thunderstorm
dangerously close to death, in so many ways
water, to drown and thrash me down
terrible wind tosses me like a toy
signal beams from the clouds, flashing
more destructive
It's Death taking aim and hopefully missing

The end of something great?....

Blue is Black

Chasm crossing breaking; bridge is wearing out
Candlefire breathing existentialism now
Revelation on horizon? Is it whispered solemn vows?
Shimmering, the darkness as the shroud is falling down

Blue burns black while white turns grey
Peaceful til the end of day
Walk the high road, some may say
Blue is black and white is grey

Vice of love is squeezing; blood is seeping out
Can't understand the feeling, does it make you happy now?
Somewhere in the silence I remember seven vows
Without question, with emotion, for her my life lay down

Blue burned black and white turned grey
Sadness fills my heart today
I've seen it all and heard them say
Blue is black and white is grey

Forbidding thoughts foreboding, a memory slips out
A time when life was perfect, a time that wasn't now
Locked away the treasure amidst a maze of many vows
Switching pain for feeling a complete and utter down

Blue burnt black and white turnt grey
Remember the ending day
So clear as if I'd heard him say
Blue is black and white is grey

Could've been

From the tool in her hand
to the temple of his head
came a treacherous roar
making walls bleed red
Ol' Virginia the wife
was now widowed instead
Found old Thomas dead in his bed
Contradicting what the coroner said

Something beyond

I stepped outside the living hive
to see that I've become alive
In just about the nick of time
aligned inside by purest vine

The plants that each within me grow
have so far shown the way to go
why in Me I do not know
who plants these seeds in such neat rows?

Shining The Holy Ark Battle Theme [H.T.Feivel Rendition]

Welllllll
I finally finished my rendition of Shining The Holy Ark's main Battle theme. This game was for the Sega Saturn [if anyone knows what that is], and the music for it is awesome!
Here is a link to the original:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JgC5Bbyh1jg&feature=related

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You never really know.

You never really know when your life is going to be changed forever... it just sort of.. happens.

One decision, even the smallest choice can alter the rest of your life. Perhaps writing this will change my life; perhaps not. Everyone's life is decided by the choices they make.

We don't choose to have dreams, but we do decide our goals.
And we all have dreams... but we don't all fulfill them. And our goals change faster than the tides.

It's like when we are born, we are put onto a highway that seems to go on and on for miles. We hope, and sometimes pray, that the highway never ends.

But it does.

Not only that, but every choice we make can impact the speed at which we reach it, and whether or not we even stay on the highway at all. There are plenty of exits and off-ramps that lead to many different kinds of roads and alleys, and even places where the road just stops altogether... but no matter what, if you follow directions, from any road, you can eventually find the highway again.

Every choice we make changes our course, for better or worse. For one day you may be happy, the next you're in a hearse. Some choice is not even ours to choose, for it is thrust upon us.

Human Pride

There are lyrics farther down, if you press ctrl+F and type Human Pride, they will show up.
For Facebook followers, go to htfeivel.blogspot.com to listen to this new song.
I will upload a new version when I have a microphone that works and it will have the words sung :)

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Epic Ballad Of The Moose-People

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go to this link: htfeivel.blogspot.com and its the post entitled "Epic Ballad Of The Moose-People

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