No Matter What I Do

waves of fear and love
shimmer, like illusion
pressure building up
faced with a decision
so close but so far
adding up my sorrows
heart and head engaged in war
afraid of all tomorrows

no matter what I do
It won't be perfect
no matter where I go
I can't escape it
There's a feeling growing cold
and the time is running out
but no matter what I do
I lose myself to you

I am calling from the wall
too much pain to break the fall
a million words I can't recall
but dreaming wonder
eluding me the choice
while a deluding inner voice
keeps fooling me with noise
but screaming thunder