No One

No One

Will I grow old alone
With no one around
A hermit living with myself, bad company
A recluse who crawls away from no one
The 80 year old virgin and bachelor
Is this me, can I change it
Am I writing my own future
Self-sacrifice leading to inevitable outcomes
Lonely but free or loved and losing
My generosity manipulated for others by others
Will I be singled out for eternity
I conduct this orchestra of abandonment
Playing the symphony of perpetual doubt
Encoring for no one, emptiness abounding
Destined to be alone, no sign of others
A desolate lifestyle with no one, but it’s mine