Glass room?

Between the sheets while I'm asleep
Within the dreams I walk into a room
When I close the door it disappears
And I find myself in a room with mirrors
Ten thousand Me's is all I see upon the glass
Forever in every way, silent as stone
Every Me does everything that I have ever done
But the ones that stay and play again
are the ones I daily wish to change

The lying man I see is Me?
Tell me how this came to be!
Looking left, I see the path and actions that it took
Leading up to lying Me, I wish I would've died so many times before
It could've happened but always by an inch
As if I was meant to live for something.
As I gaze to my right, I see so many future Me's
But only one that I wish to be

Staring straight ahead, the man I used to be haunts me
Somehow he gets inside her head as well
He wants the short-lived future to be made real
But I say your death has already been revealed
This is MY time, and you should be dead
So please, for our sakes, get out of my head

The boy to my left, with a gun to his ear
Doesn't realize the girl he kissed is the one I hold dear
Locked inside a closet, the boy cries alone
I feel sorry for him, but I wish him to leave,
If he comes out again, it's her who would leave,
And all these faces staring back at me
Would tell me it's my fault she didn't believe
And the man right in front, the Lying Me
Would end the life lead in misery.

I chose to kill these faces to save the places of the present
I chose to change my ways to change the course of us together
I will never be the man I was, he died
But she brings him up as if he still exists.
I want him gone forever.
The numbness has to end, the trusting must begin.
The past is not our friend, but the future we will win

Storm. With Drums. and everything else. [except words :P]

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The Beginning Of The End

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Lyrics:

H.T. Feivel: the beginning of the end

If the future could erase the past
and the past could be lost to the world
I'd change whats been done in a flash
And complete the broken trust of my girl

The day they should come

Rusted cars in junkyards with a little boy inside
Raised by the sliding of steel wheels on the train tracks
Passed around like a virus, and treated just the same
Walking in the jungle of jagged metal, with only a ghost for a friend
A little piece of heaven just can't understand the past
To be haunted by the ones meant to love, ignorant but missed

Separated from others by his gifted curse
Carrion feasted by vultures called "friends"
Using him, losing him, in general just abusing him
Confusing when he hits the floor
An innocent mind in a world so cold
Wishing he could change the world without using fire
But burning is all they understand
Not concerned with caring about the poorer man

Left alone in the gutter for days upon end
Wishing someone would label him friend
But when no one will come
When nobody cares
But when no one will come
When nobody cares
The day they should come
He'll no longer be there
But when no one will come
When nobody cares

Storm. My new song.

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That man is not me!

Death's black ink upon this line
shows nothing how I feel
Prisoner inside my own mine
my memories: my meals
Haunted by the undefined
I cannot know what's real
In dreams I am the killing kind
my nature is revealed

Am I, what I never
thought that I would be
Lies of, former self
Stalk me in my dreams
Darkness, come find me
Why can't you understand
I hurt you but nearly killed me
But you just won't believe

All of my love poured out
into your paper cup
When it dries you set alight
burning future life
You can't be here inside my mind
and so you'll never see
What's past is black, former attacks
That that man is not ME!!!!

Midnight Rain

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Sacred meadow in my head infected by the living dead

La Luna II

Chosen to lead all who follow none,
A man within walls of himself comes undone
Moonlight reality of fantasy or meant to be
But bleeding thoughts are trapped inside his head

The sun will rise and set but the moon will always follow
A phantom of the day that only light can swallow
Hidden in the high-up white, revealed fully through the night
but the light that shines from her is borrowed

La luna drifts away but causes tides on mother Gaia,
faintly in the day a prism flying toward horizon
Debt for light in present flight, a wonder to the people
Concepts: free and liberty unfit describe celestiality
Instead, the art of ever truth and never lying
No bed, no home, no place of dying

The sun will rise and set but the moon will always follow
A phantom of the day that only light can swallow
Hidden in the high-up white, revealed fully through the night
The light that shines from her is borrowed

To every light there's a dark
not always a calm before the storm
Scarred with the age of years
scaring, bringing forth the tears and fears
Look to the stars for guidance
but you weren't always there
When you are gone all is lost
All is lost
All is lost

Fixing the loss

Chains drape like curtains from the ceiling
Tougher than steel nails
Cardboard boxes on paper trails
Fill full the shelving with you
Inside every photograph, your face
Mountains bow before your love
Yet broken trust is torn among the loss

I did it all, the past is set
It cannot change which I regret
I broke her heart, went back to start
Without the chance to change the past
But given wish to mend her heart.

The End Of Autumn

Cityscapes saught silence on the sidewalks
Cars conversing cause crashes and chaos
Cement poured across the meadow that's now lost
There is no end for the future

Leaves leap off trees only to be blown and swept away
The present is tomorrow's past, the future's yesterday
A chilling quilt fills the land with shades of dying grey
Where color bloomed now dead today, a debt we can't repay

Crumbled away the former empires of yesterday
As night flows through day, all else fades away
Mankind is so unkind to believe we justify our means
With sins that time will wash away,
A race became unclean, dull polish hardly gleams
Change is here in few short years,
For nothing's as it seems.

Autumn's dewy breath is frozen by Death
As life retreats to the rarities of warmth
Warning none of fading sun the winter snow has come and won
Echoing hands of time strangle every life until it's done

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He never saw it coming if he did he'd still be running
Somewhere gunning down a little town until no sound is uttered
Pumping shells into the masses; anger, blood, and broken glass is
Falling down around the massive losses; blasting, lost in chaos

The military came with all their weapons make him famous
For a crime he got away with an escape that TV broadcast
Shooting footage of the man who shot a town under an hour
Show the world of today that we the people have the power

Even though they say he's evil with intelligence revealed
Someone sees the man on TV recognizing how he feels
Another time another place the memory of lying faces
Fills the space inside his brain with anger, hate, and constant failure

Sticks and Stones [Music for the Previous]

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If I am to die

If I were to die tonight, I die a death of shame
If I had died back then, I'd have died with a grin
If I am to die tomorrow, I die locked in the past
But Death is a coyote
He tricks you into think you're dying
He makes you cold when someone's lying
He grabs your soul and closes fist
And laughs because you can't resist

So cruel a man can not be found, though evil rules this world
A fool in love is chained and bound, so people hear no cries
Disguise the shiver down your spine that comes up from another time
I can't get sick but I can suffer, from the pain an empty crime

The days of true joy have been and spent,
but at least they did while they were

Trapped In My Head part 4

Dripping come her words unheard spit venom in my throat
A spiny snake of half-truths, blind emotion on the road
I choke down her breakdown and float on knowin' it's broke now
Salvation's reservation called and they don't want the table
Always stripped away today as never takes its place
And reigns in rain pulling the reigns of blackening embrace
Where once a face now scars from pains that I could not let go
There is no way out of my head I'm trapped inside this place

Breakdown

Thanks Tom Petty

Okay, so here's what I envision for this song. A homeless man sings and there is also a lead singer, and of course, well, instruments of all kinds working together.
L.S. = lead singer, H.M = homeless man

Homeless man:
It's alright if you love me
It's alright if you won't
I'm not afraid if I die here today
Here I lay by the side of the road

Lead singer:
Do you remember seeing him so weak and thin out in the rain
While you watched him fade away from within the comfort of your train
His cold, old bones that fought for you now lie in the drain that is his grave
Red, white, and blue now forgot who he was, just another cardboard "Jesus Saves"

L.S:
Breakdown
H.M.:
Go ahead and give it to me
L.S.:
Breakdown
H.M.:
Death will take me in the night
Together:
Breakdown, oooooooo
H.M.:
It's alright, it's alright

How can he explain how hard it is if no one cares?
Everybody shifts their guilty glaze from him to anywhere
Limping every street downtown from the shrapnel of the past still there
Is it too late to save this man who lost it all? That don't seem fair

L.S:
Breakdown
H.M.:
Go ahead and give it to me
L.S.:
Breakdown
H.M.:
Death will take me in the night
Together:
Breakdown, oooooooo
H.M.:
It's alright, it's alright




Thats all i have.

Abyss

Pouring rain drips off the bridge that man just walked across
Shivering cold, soaking wet, just another broken cross
Upon his chest is written death, internal bloody holocaust
Past battles won and lost now he's left inside the thoughts
The bridge begins to burn everything that this man has lost
The sins within him hurt now manifesting into greater loss


Where once was green and good now gone and in the ground
He makes another footstep that echoes with no sound
Abyss so deep he lives in sleep a place to walk around
No place to call his home
Hope has left this man and now he shivers in the rain
Unforgotten lost in memory these scars will never fade
He crossed another bridge ticking clocks will never change
Crumbled away the former yesterday

Just the same

Visions of hell walk alive under waning moon
Mistake of the lifetime, the lifeline long gone
How is time perceived when you're lost in memory?
The shadows of the mountain caving in to black abyss
Fine portrait robed in bliss prematurely kills first kiss
A thousand miles set alight are now a flaming blaze
Remembering the nights up late and talking every day

Grapple my emotion, but learn to stay away
How was I to know that I would be to blame
Tighten binding knots, blinding white upon the sands
I always thought I'm different, but I am just the same

A life in a second

I often wonder whether others wonder
"What's it like to be inside his head?"

Imagine a flash of lightning.
In the time it takes for the light to be gone,
this entire cycle is done.
My mind builds worlds and burns them the same day
Sometimes they die when they're born.
Others live on as questions I can't answer,
As problems I can't solve.

Imagine an acorn, still on the tree
It has to fall from great heights
But how can it ever grow without help?
The sun shines through blue skies, melting lakes
The little seed floats down the flowing rivers
Clouds live their lives way up high
When they die they fall, as the acorn
and together they create a life.

Far from first conception, the acorn lays down roots
A sprout pokes forth from the earth

Seasons pass as the tiny tree takes on stormy weather
Battling to survive winter's frosts
Summer floods wash the ground but the tree holds fast
All these obstacles have toughened its hide
Where once was soft green flesh, coarse bark now armors the tree

Where once was a seed, now lives a strong tree
A tree that's seen more than a being with sight
A child fights monsters on every branch
And returns to do so for many days
The joy of the boy could last only so long
And once again the tree finds itself all alone

Years pass without warning, the tree starts to age
Where once was green leaves, dead branches make a cage
The playtime of youth is long dead and gone
And it will never come back to this tree

The ancient wooden elder whose life spanned so long
Was struck down by lightning one strong summer storm
At that minute, the tree died to us all

Lovers come by burning hearts on a log
And passion pumps fuel with a kiss
The powerful tree now lies fallen and weak
A relic of what used to be

The Suffering Meadow

In between electrified dreams
Intense with intent to suspend
Blue eyes shy back from their keeper's black past
Here's a man dead long fore his time

Forgotten who he used to be
A monster impossible to be loved
Times change with storm rains
Fill full a river his pain
As tainted water charts its course
grappling roots feed without clue
Absorbing his hate, they wither and die
There's only so much good that the sun can do.

This meadow turned wasteland offers no hope
As time attacks any new growth
Eventually all life becomes fuel for the next
When the storms arrive back with clouds tainted black
Thor's throwing thunder from inside the sky
This suffering meadow is struck with a bolt
A grim scene shadowed by death
As sparks multiply the man's rage fills inside
Through the field of hate where he first sowed his fate
In the end, fire burns us all
Until nothing remains but ashes of bones
Somehow another life is born to repeat again

it is time

My friend, it is time that the mourning bells chime
Tolling in blue, from morning through night
Waking from dreams seeing seas beyond reach
While elusive, she hides on the shadowy beach

Abruptly erupting from the death and destruction
Rose up from the ashes a figure so close
A flash of an image of one once worth knowing
Flashback to black with a past now so cold

Amnesia wraps its arms around and gives me such a hug
An iron maiden memory that traps all hope inside
Sharpened lies that pierce the flesh produce this pain I feel
Nothing will remain if I'm to fall again to hell

A place

Once existed a meadow, with flowers of white
Where crickets would serenade me all night
As sun rose, petals bloomed; the trees grew strong
An infant in bliss, but it didn't last long
Left alone in the woods, forgotten for hours
Memories formed as they burned all his flowers
This child grew up within wilting white fields
Fourteen so lonesome, gray skies clouded over
Hanging there for years to come.

Did dreamland die with the butterflies?
Meadow decay into swamplands of pain
Thunderclaps, roaring, call out his name
Did dreamland die with the butterflies?
A place no one knew, a place just for me
A place in my mind I could finally be free

New Song :)

Moonlight Reality

Dreams, they come and go
But memory lasts a lifetime
Worlds hide in his head
Just waiting for a chance
He perceives a visionary
Within his prison cell
Time speaks to the man
Who doesn't know himself.

In dreams he goes so far away
To lands that can't be real
All reality is chained
A crime without a deal

He can run, but can't be shot
He can fly and won't get caught
He can love with worries not
Under cover of moonlight reality

travel.

Merciless clouds march over mountains
The soldiers of the sky
Time is short and so unfair
Seas become my eyes
I climb the tree that showed me life
She sits right beside
A simple wish: to share my love
I'll love you til I die

You just don't understand, just how much I care
If I had the opportunity, I'd gladly take you there
I'd cuddle with you every night, run fingers through your hair
Let me be the one to travel with you there.

Sticks and Stones

H.T. Feivel: Sticks and Stones [Music for the Previous]

Eyewitness bore too much to bear
As sorrow struck him with despair
On springtime evenings, it is there
He wonders if love's in the air

After every perfect kiss
All he sees are signs of bliss
But when alone, memory is shown
These sticks and stones will break his hope

Father left him eight years old
No letters, words, or calling phone
The boy grew up feeling alone
His hatred burns a fire so cold
Because he's locked it up inside
A beast within himself he hides
He still recalls his father's eyes
Those nights that anger broke disguise

All this time, it's held inside
What do you believe?
Mother when will be my time
Where's your epiphany?
Come dance along these battle lines
Who's it gonna be?
Delude yourself, my Queen of Pine
Define your destiny?

Loneliness

i wrote this a long time ago and forgot about it.
sooo here it is

i dont know why. it seems that i can escape from the pain and prison of my mind for temporary timeshifts but in the end, and often short, i wind up in a cell of my own creation, something, somewhere i wish i didnt know. i live in this place, i infrequently am relieved of this persecution, but of course, it isnt total and complete. it is always separated with strings attached. more like rubber ropes than strings, for they yank me back. i dont know why i have been so absorbed into my introspective world of which no one can enter. i dont know how to escape. i feel trapped inside my head. my words seem to be my only release, like soemone is being held hostage inside me, but that someone is Happiness. i want him free, but he is resolved to living in solitude, and this i cannot change. i am the prison on the rock of my life, surrounded by murky waters of mistrust and malcontent, the razor-wire fences of my own impious actions surround me before the hate ever grabs control. once or twice i have slipped out of the fence, but as always, the ebb and flow of that sea of despair washes the sands of longing into an ever tidal crescendo of my own imminent doom. i dont know how long i can stay locked away within myself. just seeing her face brought it back. jsut opening my eyes brought it all back. just closing my eyes, and seeing their faces tattooed onto the backs of my eyelids burn a hole in my retina, making me wish i was blind, deaf, and dumb.

I tell you now, my pain is gone.

And just like that, I knew.
This whole time I've been feeling blue
Her mind's confused, but her heart is true
"I'd do anything for you."

I can't explain the breaking dawn
I tell you now my pain is gone

If someone viewed us from afar
They'd see romance, cuddling stars
Her love is quietly radiant and pure
We share a bond that's so secure
Such common passion, I know for sure
I am happiest with her

More of a story is hard to find
I still wonder how I was so blind
You see, she's been here, this whole time
I thought she knew, we saw the signs

dreaming

How wonderfully painful it is to fall asleep
Waking inside while my body lies
A new world emerges, built of reality
But clay dolls play games in rusted lives

Love sings that serenading siren-call,
and it warms my entire body...
but none of it is real

Death stalks me across every wall
and it floods me with fear
but none of this is real

I shake the hand of misery;
It destroys all hope in dream
Even when I'm close to death
I've only silent screams

With nothing left but crumbling end
I find myself without a friend
I walk the world, drenched in blue
Missing all I've had with you

Then the storm abates and dies
I wake up cold, apply disguise
No one knows what's held inside
But She controls my mind.

Well, It's my fault.

Behind the blue, below the clouds
A wandering mind, a sealed mouth
What is love, but pain and loss?
Enduring patience, please pay off

I've come to realize
That you're always on my mind
And whenever you're beside
I am fully satisfied.

But whenever you're not close
It's as if my hope has froze
I wish that you could know
How much I wish that it were so.

Waiting for love is the hardest thing
Because every time it ends in nothing
If only SHE were the one on MY string
She'd feel every inch of my suffering

Hard to find the words to say I love you

so the musical accompaniment for this is C, G, Am, F, and the rhythm is just hit 1 measure of upbeats per note. [aka ska]
That what I have so far.

Walls of who I used to be
Come tumbling down with a thundering sound
I'm so happily melancholy
And the rain is falling all around

Why does love always gotta be so unfair
I always think I have her then I realize that she isn't really there

I know in my heart I'm right
but the words are never heard or said
People wonder why I'm up all night
But that's because they're not inside my head

I wish that I could do or say something to make her believe
Someone tell me somehow show me something can you tell me if it was meant to be

*flush*

Entombed and enchanted in love's tallest tower
Minutes flow through days as weeks pass the hour
Shattering, the black revelation takes place
My mind...oh... what have I done?..

Pure gilded love runs red with rust
Now, a broken trust as the crow flies,
It looks down at the lies, at her built up-disguise
Compromised now is life, as I watch my demise.

Soldier of the mire

Arise from slumber to internal thunder
Memory explodes, sending shrapnel
Into my already war-torn soul
Let the rumble funnel the hurt into my heart
Until the acid fills the brim past full
And the beginning of the end, it starts.

A soldier on this battlefield of misery and lies,
I launch attacks on happiness, hidden in disguise
Bombs and words rain down, leaving craters in my mind
Nothing to control the pain, just suffering I find

The field burns all words of yearning and desire
Incinerating hope and love, consumed internal fire
My hate and anger course my blood, I've set myself to die
Before I become the soldier, the beholder of the mire

Inside my mind

Abruptly, the calm explodes as a rippling liquid,
more glossy than glass, probing for sight in the blind pit
Instead, a resonating fuzz fills my ears,
and through the static, I know.

I see, and the vision is one of anger, pain, and suffering
I hear, and the song melts my mind with tones of emotions
I feel, and the wounds will never fully heal
I am, I am what I am.

Behind the vines of mirth, my hate is itching for a fight
Tonight could be the night, for life or flight of fright
You see me,
You know me,
But I know nothing of you.
I see you,
I know you,
But you know nothing of me.

Axis crossed, in polar extreme
Only I can know what I mean.
This is forever, or so it may seem
What goes on in my head would make anyone scream.

Even when surrounding silence seeps into my mind
She speaks three words to me in her perfect harmony
And I'm melted...the butter on her toast.

Oh....and i'm excited to have a sister. :)

To my untouchable:

"It won't be long now love, like mist I slowly fill the room..."
-Sonata Arctica

I'm changed

It is time.
Gradual darkening feeds on my untapped hate
Shaking the plagued hand of corruption, I'm changed.

As night flows through day all else fades away.
Tomorrow will never be the same as yesterday.
And if today I walk away,
I'll burn alive within my hate
As night flows through day all else fades away

Moonlight is sunlight that doesn't shine
Anger points its fingers towards my mind
Leave behind this life of mine,
Sunk below the bottom line
As night flows through day all else fades away.

Current. [song]

Listen to The Cory Weber Solo Project - Current Song


check it out, listen til the end

I should have known
You can't unstitch the threads of life once they are sewn
The path is black
Everywhere I go it seems like I'm attacked
But look at him
He never gives up but he never wins
He can't forget all that's been done to him
He wants to get out but he's locked within....in.

the beginning of the end

H.T. Feivel: The Beginning Of The End
On the edge of chaos
We all wait for our time
As we swim through dark waters
Far from the fiery light
As he walks through swamps
In the ending days
The future is passing
As he digs his own grave

This is the beginning of the end

Armageddon is here
It will awaken your fears
The path is so clear
That the end is so near
As he walks through hell
In the darkest days
His future is passing
Is it too late to save?

This is the beginning of the end

Die by the hands of your maker
Never free, couldn't be
What you wanted it to be
Now you bow before the ones who fooled you
Say goodbye to the lies
No more living in disguise

hmmm. the future, eh?
I think something like this.

Behind the crisp scent of fresh-cut flowers,
There is a beautiful girl.
Striding the sands in the ecstasies of love,
I swear I'll never let her go
I'll hold her hand while the world dies
My time gets lost within her eyes
When her smile fades, I'll cheer her up
Then worthwhile days bring a clear, pure flood
of fulfillment, we won't have to hide the truth
In just a few short years, my love

The day is coming when I can steal your breath
And just looking at you will render me mute
All the days of waiting, finally put to death
Already, my dreams come complete with you :)

My untouchable, your heart is mine to hold
One day this will be our story told
The crime of time, and events that unfold
My love, your mine, our love is bold.

Think Freely. .. ...

I made this song earlier today, and I think I'm gonna start posting songs on here too. "Think Freely", as the song so explicitly states....the world is falling apart...
...
Listen to "Western Sky" - Think Freely
it's time for change
someone needs to begin
the charge to trample congress
and begin anew again
this country was the best
but now it falls apart
There needn't be hate nor blood
but change, all the same
...

To my untouchable,

I love you more than the symphony of a million serenading crickets, and I look forward to spending nice forest-rimmed lakeside evenings under a gazebo, eating dinner, and being together :)

-H.T. Feivel

oh, and "western Sky" as a band name. :P

in my sleep, i am loved

So many times, throughout the day
I remember her face, the words she used to say
Pavement talks, hallway walks almost everyday
But now all I can think about's the one that got away

I sit in chairs, while numbers stare
Neon flashbacks, she's right there
If only she had equal care
But life is cruel, alas, unfair

Journey to a crater rim, her smile hides inside
Even though she knows, we go on in silence
Try to find the spark inside, my love
Take my heart to yours, in lands above
the earth, where happiness is free
A kiss I give to you, your love you give to me
If only, but mostly this is my fantasy
Sadly this reality will never come to be

the owl and him

Full moon walks to the birdhouse
with lips sealed and memory revealed
A young man carries everything he's lost
While the biggest owl strikes melodies of night

Chords, they play inside his head
Memory repeats everything they've said
One she for him, a she who cares
A she who in reality was never there

He sits on wood, just like the owl
Together blackened, man and fowl
Fouler tears were cried and dried
No one knows what's held inside

Trust is something he can't do
It wasn't broken til he met you
You shattered trust as well as heart
A young man wishes death to start

Pour this nectar in his soul
Use your love to make him whole
Open up your concrete heart
Let love begin, let the healing start

The owl still perched upon that tree
Gazes at a man lost in memory
It sees a mouse and dives to kill
Silence echoes as all grows still

The blackbird

Among the rows of grey stone
Another man finds his home
His body rests and memory lives
But in time, that too soon will fade

"Give up," the blackbird had sadly called
"There's no justice for love after all,"
Spreading his wings, it flew away
Spreading forth misery in its own way

Each life it visits soon ends
His message of death not pretend
When the blackbird calls forth your name
You become a pawn in his game
Unfortunately his mercy is dry
And now you, too, must die

Below the rock

Brush aside my apology, bring forth my blackened eulogy
For tonight we dig this grave in somber silence shattered harmony
Torn asunder, drift on seas, remember every memory
Torture words you used to bruise me,
Rape me, use but never lose me

Hope took flight so long ago
A rope so tight around my throat
Never could I change her mind
I wonder why I'm still alive

Rock bottom's been, and deeper still
I sink far down, as moonlight fills
the room will spin, my heart you've killed
Swallow again this bitter pill

my glass jar

Adrift among memory, a man found a girl
Like life plays out, he fell in love
His lifeblood spills out, she soaks it all up
Only to poison it and shoot him in the heart

Imagine a blackbird trapped in a box
A memory prison, more solid than steel
Picture my heart, beating and alive
Inside a glass jar, cold to the touch

I gave the one that invisible prison
She smashed it, and for a moment I was free
Only until I realized what she did to me
The shattered jar left my heart exposed
Glass broken, shards impaled my heart
She wore her clay mask of lies
Unfortunately I believed her disguise
I remember all the kisses, staring in her eyes
I'll forever be wondering why, forever why

Sand Sailor

A murder of black omens, crows, stashing tokens
Of jealousy, hate, lust, and sins here unspoken
Now shattered and broken is the window to all hope
Winds blow wooden breath heavy oaken fraying one man's rope

A desert place, complete without life
without a refreshing oasis in sight
Vultures come in the middle of the night
To restore the balance of death

Tread the eternal unending deluge
Of sand, brimstone, fire that's searing right through
the flesh of all hermits and vagrants like you
Who wander til death through the hate-founded dunes

Human Pride

This ongoing war that never halts
Is there no army strong enough to revolt?
One citizen can change the course of it all
Vote blindly for change, for the end of the world

This battle is fought only to be lost
There are no more resources to exhaust
You just keep hoping help will arrive
But by your own means, you'll never survive

A soldier aims his gun, but it's too late
the bloody field of people by a desert lake
Battle lines were drawn, washed away with mud
Thousands dead and dying, holocaust of blood

The leaders sit in their distant tents
Plotting out ways just to get revengeance
You as a soldier, you've had enough
Living life in hell, from the time you wake up

Tonight they will find out how it ends
The future is changing with you and your men
You have the will, they have the way
The war will be over if they do what you say

Don't think twice, it's alright

thank you, bob dylan. here's what i have to say.


You see our life through a covered lens, babe
So in reality, you see nothing at all
You look in the past and you know the whole truth, babe
But you're scared to admit to yourself
That what if the love that was building inside
Was not just a dream or a feeling to hide
Somewhere things just got knocked out of line
Don't think twice, it's alright

It's no use tryin stay up late at night, babe
I'll come visit you in the past
And it's no use tryin to save what you break, babe
If it's broke it don't work anyhow
When meteors struck you from old wounds renewed
I knew it was useless but I still tried for you
I gave you my heart and you gave me the blues
Don't think twice it's alright

I never hear your voice on my phone, babe
Maybe you've found someone new
and I'll never forget those nights stayed up late, babe
Home, home is where my heart sleeps
Look at us now, where has the time gone
I close my eyes, and then there you are
You are the one that has most of my heart
Don't think twice, it's alright

I've lost

Caged inside these prison walls
I find I'm not alone
Morbid voices echo halls
My heart's been turned to stone

Erupting pain, I leech myself
For now a darker day
Behind the blue, the midnight shelf
All joy's been washed away

I close my eyes, and open them
But nothing is the same
My cloak of life has fraying hems
MY life: I've lost this game.

dollars

I etch these words
Upon this bill
To tell a tale
Of misery still

It grows inside
And can't be tamed
The girl I loved
I€s the one to blame

She cheated thrice
And broke my heart
Now I lay here
It's a bloody start

She came and went
And took her knife
With just four words
She ended my life.

you'll be a part of me

I know what I do is wrong
but it may be too late
the path ahead is so long
I've corrupted through my hate

All-consuming flames chart their course through my veins
A spider's web of wilted hope, I've begun to think deranged
It is raining drops of memory, enough to fill my deepest seas
As evening bells toll forth their dirge, an epiphany has come to me

Even if all my love is taken
Even while my heart is breaking
As long as I can still have thought
You'll be part of me

Even with the lies that ran so deep
Even when I call your name in my sleep
As long as I still have these thoughts
You'll be a part of me

Even if I want you to leave
Even when I scream for mercy
I get no choice, you're always here
Rooted in my deepest fear.
As long as I'm lost within the thought
You'll be a part of me.

time again...

Jaundiced eyes of time itself
look upon this man
his deck of life laid out for him
reveals a folding hand
His healed scars, his opened wounds,
His neverending plans
Misfortune's man, alone again
But now he takes a stand....

Time's lurking 'round the corner
and hiding in the streets
Clocks are ticking everywhere
Every living heart still beats

Foggy roads and dirty fields
Cliffs of stone and broken bones
Time burrows into it all
And this he realized
All his dreams have become dust
Now it's time for real life

i'm the frankenheart!

Etched upon my eyelids is a face.


Never from another have I been so inspired
Words burn inside as she kindles my fire
Little does she realize the effect she has on me
Her helping hand has saved me from the roaring blackened sea
If only she knew just what she meant, maybe she'd awaken
Until that day I'll close my eyes, living life forsaken

And some may say, "She'll never love."
While inside, I hope they're wrong
But if they're right then maybe
I should be singing a different song

while she sits on the phone....

well-worn white carpet ties me to the ground
while the stones of his words are being thrown around
he, the former lover of my current light
words of acid eat her heart in the night

Despite her knight who calls forth her name
the former lover continues his game
If it were an option I'd siphon her pain
Leech out all memory of him from her brain
Bleed him right out til the last drop is gone
So she can be happy by the upcoming dawn

Deep down she must think that she is at fault
She has been building up higher her internal walls
She won't let another pass without reason
She grows on me more with each day of each season
I wait for the day when I can hold her again
I'll give her eskimo kisses while holding her hand
Together we can both travel the land
If I get the chance to be proud as her man

Something's Off...

Another midnight shift begins:
Grinding teeth becoming sand,
Wishing for yet one more chance,
Possessed by memory forged from lies,
Half a man in his darkest night.

Coming back and going there
He knows his love was never shared
He can't break chains that lock his mind
Suffering's prisoner, he's held inside,
Tortured by her lying eyes,
Few whispered words that make him cry;
Knowing now they all were lies.

Something's off when everything's right...
The brightest day may have the darkest night
Refusing surrender to the enveloping pain
He's not insane to wish for change

A Herculean Task

and now for my attempt at middle english....

[It is] A Herculean task to hold creed whilst
Gilded honey flows forth from lying lips
Dulcet, sensual morsel; savour thy forbidden fruit
Pricketh not with ivory thy ill-fated apple of knowledge,
Heed this counsel, be it indulgence thy path:
Ne'er hath one dwelled a return voyage from the truth.

After a night in the park.

I'm just going to start this and see where it goes.


I never imagined the scene of my own eulogy.

I lay on a step of the cold concrete rise
Absorbing the words that were warming inside
Gazing at the rainbow moon, I began to cry
Hiding the tears of joy, repressing a sigh
Lying on my back in full view of night skies
The happiest times are when you're by my side.

Each night or morning when you pull up my street
I hesitate to get out of the car to my feet
While I walk to my door, I've one thing on my mind
Wondering, wondering, is now the right time?
To run back to her car, hop in, and drive off
Wondering whether to fall in love is a crime...