another failure

Another Failure

I went in knowing I lost
But I fought anyway
A pitched match, loaded against me
Why do I always set myself up to fail
And get hurt the whole time
I wear my broken heart on my cold, chipped shoulder
Depressed and hypocritical with my next
Emotional abuser, for my own motives
To help both of us, but it’s not working
I failed again, utterly alone, by lies
A race against love, one I always lose
Crying over my failures
Past, present, and future
Inverted and upset, this routine? False.
The guilt feasts on what’s left of my soul
Once again, I complete this failure