ponder

Ponder?

Hugging darkness all around
Only so long before it surrounds
The life and the will to do
Shows me the opposite of what I want it to
Thoughts of happy and thoughts of sad
Entertain the pain that I wish I didn’t have?
Only when I see what I want to see
That I will ever truly be free

What becomes of a soul when it departs?
Does it die? Does it live? Does it go to the stars?
Is there a heaven, a life eternal?
Is there a devil, damnation infernal?
Is life just a test to check what we know?
If so I know I don’t want to go to the show
Of demons, monsters, horrors, freaks
Around the corner darkness sneaks up on the weak

I still don’t know why it won’t show
Me what I want and where to go
Slithering coils of evil chase my every move
I shall release the might, only then can I prove
My secrets, nightmares; my personal anguish
Must leave me alone or it’s my dying wish
I am burning alive, inside I have died
I am one with the reaper; we are one, him and I