not to cry

Not To Cry

A symbol of innocence is shattered
And it can’t be fixed
Stay and breathe me in
Observe the coward’s point of view
Selfless, I give my all to you and you take it
Then so does the next, and so on until I’m gone

The routine same as ever: ponder
Wonder why I became a ghoulish monster
[I] Ask myself how I got this way
my favorites make me hurt more
looking inside for some clue; a way out
I find none and reject myself, taking your lead

When I think about my life
It’s hard not to cry
Realizing I can help others but I can’t help myself
I fall to pieces, asking why
Wearing my mask, the tears leak out
I wonder why I try
Abused again and again, I won’t give up
But I wish I could fly away from here